Tuesday, August 26, 2008

Enough about me. What do YOU think of me?

Welcome to my world.  The NY Times says that "narcissism" is the new psycho babble word of choice, as in Tom Cruise is a narcissist.  Paris Hilton is a narcissist. _____is a narcissist.  You can fill in your own blank.  If you use the word loosely then we are all narcissists.  Who do we really care about more than our precious selves?  I thought Von Watson when she was out of her mind in her nineties was telling the absolute truth:  when she was told her daughter, Eunice, had died of cancer, she said, "Oh, I'm glad it wasn't me!"  

The summer is wearing down and I am feeling the effects.  It's been almost three months since we moved to Daybreak and the euphoria of moving is melting away as it always does.  I end up being the same person I've always been:  anxious, lazy and morose.  My novel seems silly.  I will continue writing it, because I'm more afraid of being undisciplined than I am of being silly.  I keep thinking there must be something else to write, but I have a feeling it is darker than I want to face.  All that is left is silliness.


5 comments:

Miss Magpie said...

I think you are Fab-U-Lous. Your disciplined writing has been impressive. And isn't it nice to be lazy for a while?

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Rian said...

theres this song that i really like and the beginning is like this:

Can we take the next hour
and talk about me
Talk about me, and we'll talk about me
Talk about me, and we'll only talk about me
Can we please take this hour
and talk about me

I'd love to take an hour and talk about myself. Me and you can do it grandma, first we'll talk about you and then we'll talk about me.

Louise Plummer said...

Yes, we can talk about ourselves for hours. I think you've found "our song." Who sings it?

Anne said...

"I'm Actual" by The Format.

It's a funny song.